WAY BEHIND!!!

I haven't had anytime to really get on the computer. Imagine that!! : )

Mom and Gary came last week when chad went to arkansas for the year beginning meeting. I'm so glad they came!!! I'm not quite there to do it all myself. There visit was a really good one. Gary is so good with the boys! And man did they play!! They made me tired just watching. Mom was a desingated jude holder and made the meals. Which a huge help!

The mornings have been hard for me. Jude went about 3 days in a row sleeping for 5 hour time period (which i think it was all cades prayer for jude to sleep so momma could) and then wanting to eat 2 hours after that (which is one hour after feeding!) but that all went down hill! he went back to eating every two hours (which is again one hour between feedings). I was starting to really get to me at night. One night sally came and intervene so i could have a breakdown. that morning chad got the boys ready for school and took them. Sally held jude and i got to sleep. : ) So last night cade said a prayer that jude would do good during the night time for me. Guess what?! Yep he did good. It wasn't a 5 hour but 3 hours. I fed him and he woke up an hour later but it was because he needed to be burped and help out a little gas. i went to sleep with the clock saying 4 and rocking him to waking up with him snoozing and the clock saying 6 a.m.!! Needless to say breastfeeding is going great!!

Jude has been a handful during the day. He isn't a fussy baby, he just wants to feel loved. Doesn't want to be put down. Which makes it hard to get anything done. It does seem like this week he is doing so much better getting put down. he has a pretty good awake time and doesn't mind the bouncy seat. He smiles!! I'm not even kidding. He can't smile on demand but he does it. He loves his face stroked (sometimes i will try to untuck his bottom lip while he is eating and he smiles). Sometimes when you talk to him he smiles. Yes gas does make him smile but it isn't always gas. Last week he developed his first tear. : ( He also weighed 7 lbs 10 oz last week at his appt. today he weighed in at 8lbs 3oz!!! hehehehe!!

The boys are still doing very well with Jude. Cade has to give him a hug and a kiss everynight before bed. Lane is the sensitive one and shares his blanket and wants to make sure he is ok. Lily always wants to kiss him!! LOL!!

So Sally is here this week. I was nervous with Lily coming but it hasn't been bad at all. Sally has helped so much. she helps with everything, even makes sure I drink enough water. : ) she made meals and keeps the house as picked up a possible. Lily loves the wizard of oz so on monday we watched the wizard of oz and yesterday we drove to liberal to dorothys house. We were not sure how cade and lane would like it, but they enjoyed it. Lily LOVED it!!! It was a good trip until we got home and lane threw up in the car!! I'm glad we were just a block away!! He didn't have a fever but sally and i got everything cleaned up, including him. I lysoled the house. Lane never ran a fever. I still kept him home from school today just to make sure. He is fine. I don't know what the deal is with throwing up from time to time. I'm glad there is no fever!!

Today we went to the park. Calley called and said it was going to get really windy so we were trying to beat the wind. we didn't make it. talk about a windy day!!! we are in for the day!!!

I'm nervous!! this is the last week that i will have help at the house. i knew coming into this that it was going to be tough. i just haven't been able to get the hang of things yet. i know that i will eventually get there just again, not there. i don't know how to balance everything right now. i feel like we are too hard on cade and expect way too much out of him and not very much from lane. i know when jude doesn't eat as often it will get better. better feed jude!